you never know

when faced with losing my fiance, i realized not what he lacked, but what he gave and had. while things are still tense after a nasty argument followed by a calmer discussion, all i can do is have faith that he will not go. i know it may seem selfish, but i would give anything to make him see that. i will not pray for it, no charms or spells. just hope. what i do pray is that he is happy. over the years i have seen him suffer in the misery caused by the women he has dated. i refuse to become one of them. he is the reason i am who i am when it comes to relationships. i saw the other side of women who "keep their man in line" and found it revolting. i'm not sure what else to say on the matter other than i hope with all my being that he remains with me.