i'm not sure

i'm not sure why i got the urge to write here today. i've been working on a real book of shadows. not a collection of ideas i thought would fit me, but what actually does after over ten years of being a witch. this simple handwritten tome with a beautiful gothik fayrie adorning the cover is giving me a feeling that perhaps i am finally coming into my own here. no more going with someone else's ideas of what it means to be a witch. this is all me. i've tried to write one before. i even have all of those failed attempts lying about. some things i used. mostly they are basic librams of runes and symbols with a touch of herb guides. this time i am truly laying out my foundations and this makes me feel more complete. i think i will do a rededication once i have completed this task. my views on some things are not exactly wiccan but have a place in my faith. wiccans tend not to like people like me. no that came out wrong. they do not understand people with my gifts and only see the negative side of them. yet they forget that a balance is constant and if one learns to use their talents they can control and contain things that could harm. it is sad really. i will be working on this a while i believe. i know it will never be complete. a true book of shadows is lovingly handed down and edited as each new reader makes adjustments that work for them. i'll go more into my gifts in another post but these are not for now.